Well, that’s it, it’s finished. Like I’ve mentioned, 5/6 of my sisters were having babies this year and the last one popped on friday. So the large part of me is cheering “YAY, no more pregnant sisters!” (yet) and another part of me is a little nervous that I’m now completely surrounded by babies.
They. Are. Everywhere.
I’ve recently gotten to the point where I am better with babies again. I’ve spent a long time now just not really acknowledging them much. I never really hold them. Well, other than the one time last year when I took the first of this years bunch off for about a 30 minute snuggle and cry. That was the only time I’d ever really touched any of my nephews (let alone any other baby) until this summer when my older brother had his son. For some reason I was drawn to that boy like he was my own. I guess it’s hard to hold back when there is no way to deny that a child is so obviously of your blood. He 
is like my brothers doppelganger. But now the last two of the bunch are out too and I’m trying my best to get back to snuggling the babies. It doesn’t feel natural, let me tell you. And I never thought I’d say that holding babies is awkward and unnatural (except W) but I’m just being honest saying that it is.
That will change with time again, right? I was never like that before. Just since my miscarriages.
It has to get better, ’cause they are everywhere.
Holy Crap! You can't talk about miscarriage! 
You know I feel you on this! And it has got to get better…but I’m proud of you! Xo
I’m just now able to hold babies again and not want to ignore them when I see them. And that’s only because I forced myself to hold them even though I didn’t want to. But it could’ve been because they were my best friend’s babies, so I wanted to because they were theirs. Stranger’s babies I still ignore.
I’m determined to believe it gets better.
I’ve only held one baby in the last year, and only once. So I say – yay you!
My best friend misunderstood what I was saying when talking to her about this. Probably thought I ment that I didn’t like holding babies at all and her response was “FUCK YOU! You’re gonna hold MY baby!”. Lol, of course I’d hold HER baby, it would practically BE mine.
Good for you! It’s always interesting to see the progress we make in life 🙂
And it always helps when the potential pregnant folks in our lives gets limited!
I think you will get better with all this, and I bet holding the babies, once you’re ready, will actually make you feel better. It’ll help your remember that the miscarriage is in the past, and that one day, you can be there snuggling your own new little one.
When we first were heading towards the RE, I had a hard time with babies and all that. Now, though, I’ve somehow, and I don’t know how, gotten a little zen about it all. My niece is so sweet that it makes it easy to be around her.